I'm not quite sure what is going on..but something is. Dane hasn't been acting right since he started this new coaching job. He acts like he doesn't want to talk to me or even be around me. I tell him that when he is home that he needs to spend more time with us..and all he does is go on the computer or watch tv. He doesn't play with his daughter or even act like she is in the room. I don't want to accuse him of something he isn't doing..so therefore I don't know the right way of going about this. But when something isn't right..a person just knows. He acts like he doesn't have to tell me where he is or what he is doing or anything. Like he used to call me on his lunch..for the past two weeks..he calls me either before or after. And then says that I just make a big deal of everything. I'm afraid to ask him anything or say anything to him anymore..all he does is say that I'm making a big deal of things. When I'm just following how I feel. It's like he doesn't want to hear me at all. When he is doing something wrong..I can't say anything..he just bites my head off and blames it on me. We don't talk much anymore, not affectionate much anymore either. Its almost like we aren't even a couple. He does his own thing and prefers at most times that I shouldn't have to know about it. That I should just trust him no matter what..when if you knew what he had done in the past..you wouldn't trust him either. I'm trying to get that trust back in him..I just can't do it alone. He expects me to tho. It takes him to help me here..he is the one who betrayed my trust.
Anywho..
He just called me..and yep..an argument broke out. I tried telling him how I feel..and of course..what did he say? I was making a 'big deal'..well sorry..when I have to tell you to spend time with your own child and family..there lies issues.
~As for my day today~
I need to run to the bank, take my sister home, get my nails done, ..with my own money..since he just bitched that he pays all the bills and can't buy nothing for himself. Then I'm gonna pay the electric and water bill..so that he doesn't have to worry about that either. As soon as I'm done writing this..I guess I'll beg for my job back at Sterling House, even though that dents my pride..just so that he isn't paying everything. Why rub that in my face ya know? I feel bad enough as it is. So busy day today..hope I can get everything done...
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